Considering my angst is:

-I killed a city
-I was betrayed by my most important person
-I was responsible for the miserable life of my new most important person
-I have detailed memories of torturing and murdering people and enjoying it
-I have experienced nightmares of torture and complete and utter terror and abandonment
-I've convinced myself it would be better for everyone if I had never existed
-I have detailed memories of tricking a person into being completely destroyed and left to die
-I have a detailed memory of shooting myself in the head
-I killed my most important person
-I killed part of a personae and was WRONG
-AND NOW I HAVE NO PHYSICAL EMOTIONAL SUPPORT
-I am probably forgetting some things

I THINK MY EMOTIONAL ISSUES ARE LEGIT and that i am lucky i am coping as well as I am o9"!!