Dawn [Inferno] // Luke fon Fabre (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
heliokleptic) wrote2011-05-09 02:13 pm
heliokleptic) wrote2011-05-09 02:13 pm
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Relationship Meme + Semi Hiatus
I am going to be slowing down my activity a lot this week because I need to focus on finding employment before school starts up again. BUT! So that I have something to distract me now and then:
Relationship meme for Luke/Dawn, Elliot, and Sugata/Tide. Other questions are welcome too!
Relationship meme for Luke/Dawn, Elliot, and Sugata/Tide. Other questions are welcome too!
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Konatsu is probably... well, up until I LIKE DUSK BUT I CAN'T SHARE HIM Konatsu was the person Dawn was most consistently comfortable with in Ruby. He's pretty comfortable with Acedia and Wrath too, but that is mostly from knowing them long enough that he can juts ignore the many various difficulties they have. Konatsu isss so far the only person in Ruby to consistently understand Dawn's feelings. He empathizes over the right things, they have fairly similar ways of looking at things, he overall MAKES SENSE to Dawn, but is sturdy enough that Dawn doesn't mind being honest with him, even about difficult things.
THEN I LOVE YOUR TWIN AND DON'T WANT TO SHARE happened and now Dawn is like...
At first he was really hurt and conflicted! Because DUSK IS HIS!!! He doesn't rationally think that way, but in a subconscious place he is super dependent on that connection, and any hint of losing even part of it is really troubling to him. His issues are really only about 10% "I have hormones and want to bang my original" and mostly just, OBSESSIVE DUSK DEPENDENCY stuff.
However, once he thought about it, and he spent all of dawn thinking about it, he realized he isn't really losing anything. He is virtually never thinks about making out with Dusk when he is around him. When he is like, ALONE AT NIGHT, HAVING HORMONES, he sure does. Or when he's drunk. But when he's WITH Dusk he is just like derederederedere Dusk .////. And happy to touch him, talk to him, hug him, hold hands. Going further than that has never actually been a concern, he just dislikes not having the OPTION because it's kind of underlying always been an intention of his. Yanno like, one day.
And now Konatsu wants to do that stuff with Dusk but ALSO doesn't want anyone else to do it and he really doesn't get it, and it makes him kind of sad and like he is personally at fault for something like does Konatsu not like me enough or trust me enough or what am I doing wrong? 8( BUT, Dawn's natural tendency to ASSUME HE DESERVES WHATEVER HE GETS kind of assumes responsibility for that. He still doesn't quite GET IT, but his answer is still "it's my own fault". WHICH IS NOT HEALTHY BUT ALSO NOT TERRIBLE because it gets him off the subject of understanding monogamy which is not going to happen without some very detailed explanation about social assumptions he doesn't remember and will have problems conceptualizing.
ANYWAY. The end result is he feels like he is in a worse place with Konatsu. BUT, due to his own fault, which means he will basically just be nicer to Konatsu to make up for it. He also realized that Konatsu being with Dusk is okay, even if that means they are EXCLUSIVE, as long as they both agree to it and it makes them both happy. Because frankly if it makes Dusk happy Dawn doesn't actually care a lot of it breaks someone else's heart.
In the end, Dawn is supportive of Konatsu, likes him a lot, but feels more awkward with him now. Still he hopes Dusk makes you happy and doesn't believe FOR A SECOND that Dusk doesn't like Konatsu which means Konatsu is just kind of dumb sometimes 8|
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Dawn- Tends to be in a semi-constant flux depending on what his most recent memories are, what has most recently happened, etc. RIGHT NOW, as in after his conversation with Konatsu and after he spent dawn recovering from his hangover and realigning his priorities:
Overall, a 6/10 on the unhappiness scale but probably a 7/10 on the jesus coping scale. He feels REALLY BAD about how things went with Dusk, and wants to go talk to him PROPERLY about his terrible memory. Also maybe molest him before he decides to date Konatsu and he loses his chance, but he will probably chicken out on that. He's worried about/confused by Acedia, which is pretty much the usual, but feeling better about Acedia stuff since he and Wrath topped him. Generally more positive on Wrath than he has been in a while, anddd remembered that he needs to talk to Jacuzzi about his memories when he is sober. Also needs to talk to Jade and make sure Jade is CAUGHT UP on Tales of Bullshit, because the other day Natalia got a bad memory and apparently she hadn't known he was a replica? So he realized maybe he is falling behind in keeping his party in the know about shit.
Which is all mostly DAWN'S PLANS/OVERALL FEELINGS ON OTHER PEOPLE but that is kind of how he works anyway. When his mood is fairly good he is more action/people oriented than introverted feelings oriented. He's depressed SECRETLY about a bunch of stuff: Acedia's crazy, Dusk's bad memory, Konatsu and him not being able to compromise on Dusk, his TERRIBLE TERRIBLE LIFE, and his generally terrible behavior while drunk. But they are all things he more or less knows how to approach OR has gotten used to, so he isn't feeling overwhelmed and helpless. He's also really happy they were able to help other teams in that game and somehow STILL WON.
Elliot- Is pretty good! A little annoyed with losing the last several games, but also really happy about getting his sword fighting
skill back! (AND XERXES BREAK SAID I WASN'T BAD!!) He's getting comfortable with a lot of people, which helps him a lot, as he generally allows people their privacy until he knows them a little bit. But Elliot NEEDS to be nosy to be Elliot, so having people to stomp all over for answers is good for him.
He has decided to just IGNORE THE GAY THING because he has really mixed feelings on it. On one hand, Aeris didn't present him with any convincing arguments so it still sounds terrible and wrong to him, on the other hand, it's clearly important to her aaaaand he realizes he doesn't have an explanation for why it is wrong beyond 'IT TOTALLY SKEEVES ME OUT' so he is going to just avoid it as long as possible and when it comes up again probably. Try to escape. Or something. Idk. ONE DAY SOMEONE WILL EXPLAIN IT SO HE CAN UNDERSTAND.
He's dividing his time between composing his current song, which has transformed from a song about his death and into a song about Firebird and is a weird mix of the two, and of course fighting people as much as possible and being in a constant state of Kind Of Beat Up. He is overall positive on Aather right now, and pretty chill and content, though whatever Three did irritates him.
Tide- Fairly neutral! He's sort of bouncing between sources of frustration (Souya always being stressed, his stupid memory, Three's power limitations on the world, trying to teach Allen to swim) and sources of contentment (Wakowakowako, Souya when he isn't being stressed, getting along better with Break, having a stove). So he isn't really strongly one way or the other right now. He is also lacking in fairly immediate objectives, which is fairly new for him in Aather. Since he arrived he has better le Babysitter, and without that and with everyone on the team being pretty decently functioning, he has to get used to... not... having something to do all the time. He is happy with his choice to give up being a babysitter/leader/lord, but it leaves him lacking immediate objectives which is kind of... derp. He sleeps a lot more now.
His memory, as much as it was a huge info dump, didn't have a serious effect on him because he knows he can't act on it, and from his other memories knows he was acting on it in the past. He has no memory of how far he got, but knows without the rest of his memories he doesn't even know if he should be planning/worried about it now. It's a weird place of inactivity that he has neutral-negative feelings on.
NOW YOU DO IT
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Break is like a 7/10 and Aeris is a 7/10.
... :|a I have a lot of Mukuro shit to sort through but . . . yeah that is the general number for pleasedness/happyness. . .
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Also Reim.
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Mostly that Luke has realized and actually put Kaworu on a level very close to Mukuro. He does realize that Kaworu is not actively dangerous, though, so it's upsetting but not stressful in the same way. But the talk about how humans should maybe just all die, and not realizing that you can't say I WOULD BE OKAY IF EVERYONE BUT X DIED and not be something worse to someone than just killing them yourself... It's a very upsetting thought process for Luke, and it depresses him.
BUT, he knows Kaworu isn't dangerous, so he isn't worried about it. Just saaaad. 8'(
He is going to have to talk to Kaworu about this confusing and upsetting monogamy thing too... And I guess find out Kaworu is dating Bones and become SECRETLY UPSET that everyone he has a crush on is hooking up.
Anyway! Overall he trusts Kaworu a lot, but totally does consider him crazy. Only he doesn't have the ANTI-CRAZY stigma so it's more of a factual awareness that Kaworu's opinions on certain subjects just have to be taken with a HUGE grain of salt. He also, however, super values Kaworu's weirdly crazy OUTLOOK because his objectivity is very helpful! And outside of certain upsetting lines of thought, Kaworu's way of looking at things is kind of... cathartic. And Luke enjoys hearing it. He also likes Kaworu's creepy physical contact stuff. Just cuz... Luke likes physical contact basically all the time now that he is getting it fairly regularly from various people.
UHM. Nothing else, really. Luke isn't prone to initating sexual stuff which is why it hasn't happened again, but he hasn't thought much of it either, cuz he's usually TOO BUSY STRESSING ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE. But yes they have a bunch of stuff they need to talk about.
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Also, you did not see me reply to the wrong thing, nope.
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Also has anything changed with Elliot and Yayoi?
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