Dawn [Inferno] // Luke fon Fabre (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
heliokleptic) wrote2011-12-01 02:32 pm
heliokleptic) wrote2011-12-01 02:32 pm
Entry tags:
Memories 29 (sig neg), 30 (triv neg), and 31 (sig pos)
Memory 29
Killing for the first time, ensuing talk with Tear and Jade
3:10 to END
Taken Day 96
Form of monocle
Minus the part where Luke is unconscious! Subsequently he only barely remembers Asch in this memory.
Lolo. So the biggest thing Dawn got out of this was 'Jesus if I hadn't been fucking around that guy wouldn't have had to die. WOW I REALLY SUCK.'
Which I'm not sure Luke ever fully realized at the time it happened. Or at least didn't admit to himself very loudly.
Otherwise, the talk with Tear and Jade here is pretty helpful. I mean, on some level Dawn knew these things. He's known he had a 'resolve to kill' since realizing he killed Van. And if he can kill someone he loves, he can really kill anyone, if he has to. However, this addresses more day-to-day survival. Dawn hasn't actually remembered needing to do things like kill Oracles Knights or bandits. People just on the wrong side of something, and who you don't have time or ability to talk down. Perhaps most helpful at all, he remembers deciding his own life was worth more than that of someone trying to kill him.
Heeeee.... still doesn't fully believe that? He probably never will. But he won't just let himself die easily, and he will learn to accept the burden of being a killer as much of the burden of being a sacrifice a little better now I think.
+dere for Tear and Jade =x
+lol selfloathing
Memory 30
Chesedonia, Asch controlling his body and Guy's cursed fon slot
4:00 to End and START to 4:30
Taken day 96
Sharable, party blower
Minus the part where Luke is unconscious!
He already knew Asch could possess his body so this is not really news. At the time, having his body controlled was pretty scary, but in retrospect it's more 'lol Asch was pretty mad at me, siiiigh'.
ANTLION MEN ARE DUMB!!
Guy has some kind of curse slot 8(? Luke was also genuinely worried about this. However, since it looks like it only works under very specific conditions Dawn isn't worried about it now. Will mention it to Guy, though.
Memory 31
Pre-Absorbtion Gate at Yulia City
9:40 to END and START to 8:10.
Taken day 102
Not sharable
APPARENTLY I REALLY NEED TO START REPLAYING THE GAME AND PUTTING MEMORIES IN PROPERLY because part of this memory Luke already got elsewhere 8D; WHOOPS
Anyway, planning to stop the Planet Storm, WHICH SOUNDS LIKE A BIG DEAL but Dawn doesn't really get it. Will probably ask Jade about that.
ALSO JADE WAS THINKING SOMETHING BUT DIDN'T EXPLAIN AND NEITHER LUKE NOR DAWN UNDERSTANDS @.@?
Guy was more blunt =D; But thankfully Dawn already knew Tear could be really kind (and Dawn doesn't feel harshness the same way Luke did so he's never thought of her as cold as he used to).
And then a that convo between Natalia and Tear again + the followup means O. OH. This Largo guy is Natalia's real father. Holy shit D8??
Poor Natalia ;;
And I guess despite the seriousness of the situation it's still overall a good memory because they were going to save the world! And they are all working together as a team and Luke felt close to everyone ._.;;
+ oh no natalia ;;
+ team dere ///
Killing for the first time, ensuing talk with Tear and Jade
3:10 to END
Taken Day 96
Form of monocle
Minus the part where Luke is unconscious! Subsequently he only barely remembers Asch in this memory.
Lolo. So the biggest thing Dawn got out of this was 'Jesus if I hadn't been fucking around that guy wouldn't have had to die. WOW I REALLY SUCK.'
Which I'm not sure Luke ever fully realized at the time it happened. Or at least didn't admit to himself very loudly.
Otherwise, the talk with Tear and Jade here is pretty helpful. I mean, on some level Dawn knew these things. He's known he had a 'resolve to kill' since realizing he killed Van. And if he can kill someone he loves, he can really kill anyone, if he has to. However, this addresses more day-to-day survival. Dawn hasn't actually remembered needing to do things like kill Oracles Knights or bandits. People just on the wrong side of something, and who you don't have time or ability to talk down. Perhaps most helpful at all, he remembers deciding his own life was worth more than that of someone trying to kill him.
Heeeee.... still doesn't fully believe that? He probably never will. But he won't just let himself die easily, and he will learn to accept the burden of being a killer as much of the burden of being a sacrifice a little better now I think.
+dere for Tear and Jade =x
+lol selfloathing
Memory 30
Chesedonia, Asch controlling his body and Guy's cursed fon slot
4:00 to End and START to 4:30
Taken day 96
Sharable, party blower
Minus the part where Luke is unconscious!
He already knew Asch could possess his body so this is not really news. At the time, having his body controlled was pretty scary, but in retrospect it's more 'lol Asch was pretty mad at me, siiiigh'.
ANTLION MEN ARE DUMB!!
Guy has some kind of curse slot 8(? Luke was also genuinely worried about this. However, since it looks like it only works under very specific conditions Dawn isn't worried about it now. Will mention it to Guy, though.
Memory 31
Pre-Absorbtion Gate at Yulia City
9:40 to END and START to 8:10.
Taken day 102
Not sharable
APPARENTLY I REALLY NEED TO START REPLAYING THE GAME AND PUTTING MEMORIES IN PROPERLY because part of this memory Luke already got elsewhere 8D; WHOOPS
Anyway, planning to stop the Planet Storm, WHICH SOUNDS LIKE A BIG DEAL but Dawn doesn't really get it. Will probably ask Jade about that.
ALSO JADE WAS THINKING SOMETHING BUT DIDN'T EXPLAIN AND NEITHER LUKE NOR DAWN UNDERSTANDS @.@?
Guy was more blunt =D; But thankfully Dawn already knew Tear could be really kind (and Dawn doesn't feel harshness the same way Luke did so he's never thought of her as cold as he used to).
And then a that convo between Natalia and Tear again + the followup means O. OH. This Largo guy is Natalia's real father. Holy shit D8??
Poor Natalia ;;
And I guess despite the seriousness of the situation it's still overall a good memory because they were going to save the world! And they are all working together as a team and Luke felt close to everyone ._.;;
+ oh no natalia ;;
+ team dere ///